(One of the last pictures of our family of three — I found out right after this that I was pregnant!)
The only thing similar about telling my husband that I was pregnant with Audrey and most recently Baby #2 was that I was over-the-moon elated. The delivery of the news? Drastically different (although if you think I blew it with the second announcement, stay tuned to see how I told him about the gender!).
It all started with the tests. And the search for the often-elusive lines.
I desperately wanted to see the lines, of course. With both pregnancies, the months of squinting to find a hint of a second line (but fail) and reading “not pregnant” on the digital test were very difficult. Each time, I was so sure that this was it…that we’d done everything right.
And with both pregnancies, the month that my dream did come true was one I had written off.
Poor timing. A weird cycle. Just not the right month.
With Audrey, I took the test, walked away and came back expecting to throw it in the garbage, like so many before. When I saw the second line, I immediately started planning how I would tell my husband. I took about a million more tests, including the digital Clearblue test that told me definitively:
I kept the news to myself for days — waiting until two blood tests confirmed the news and that things were progressing well — and then created an elaborate surprise for him, tied into a special trip to Miami. It was a beautiful memory that I think was very special for both of us.
With Baby Bug 2.0, it was not quite the announcement that Audrey received. We’d just decided to move across the state. We were trying to figure out where we’d live, and how I could continue to work, and what to do with our house, and how in the world we were going to afford it all…
…and then, on a whim, I took a pregnancy test. It had been a bizarre cycle for me, and I just didn’t think mathematically I could expect anything good. And then, instantly — before I could even walk out of the room: BAM.
I stumbled out of the bathroom in a daze, looked at my sleeping husband and said out loud: “I’m pregnant.” Then a little louder. “I’m PREGNANT!”
Apparently those words are enough to wake any man up from a sound slumber, because he sat up, rubbed his eyes and said… “We are? Wow.” Then after a beat. “Awesome. That’s great.”
And it was. IS. Awesome and great. Life-changing. Exactly what we wanted and hoped for. (I just wish I’d taken a little more time to craft an awesome announcement for him the second time!)
The awkward delivery of the news to my husband notwithstanding, I can truly say that there is nothing that will get your heart racing as much as a positive pregnancy test. Whether or not you’re trying (or trying for a long time) or maybe even surprised at the news, seeing the lines and the word will trip your heart and give you the biggest butterflies you can imagine. It’s powerful. It’s terrifying. It immediately shifts your focus from ME to BABY.
(And for a brief moment, you will stop to consider and even mourn the knowledge that you’ve had your last big glass of wine for a while.)
That’s why I so love this collection of pregnancy announcements from Clearblue (especially the one with the girlfriends on the couch — CHILLS!):
Each one is different. Each one is so special.
And while telling our families — especially our parents — and close friends the news is one of the best parts, telling the world this week was pretty exciting as well. It makes it feel real. It makes it feel communal, like the world is wishing you and your belly well.
If I could bottle the excitement that comes with taking a positive pregnancy test, I would. I’d give it away to anyone who needed it. I’d open it up every day just to get another hit.
(And just a quick note: if you’re still waiting for your positive test? Please know that I’m wishing you the very best. This is a difficult holiday and a tough time of year for families who are struggling to get or stay pregnant. Please take time for yourself to celebrate how amazing you are and know that I’ll be pulling for you.)
I was selected for this opportunity as a member of Clever Girls and the content and opinions expressed here are all my own.